whoops! sorry for not blogging for so long! aahs. ive tried but my com crashes every single time i try! whoop de doo! haha. finally can le!
back from church camp!i believe everyone dreaded the trip back like i did. it was a faboo break from everything back in singapore. i wish we cld have that kind of life all the time. haiz...
through this camp. well. i've established my two goals i made for the camp. to build a stronger bond with my bros n sis in the LORD and to not sleep during the sermons.
i've learnt to control myself and to think before my every step cuz it reflects on the Lord and the Holy Spirit.
i've also learnt, that i've drifted away from those who i was once quite close to like ning, sze, hongyu etc. yeah ning. maybe you're righht to have told me "don't drift away like a white jellyfish!" i doubted tt i wld, but now, looking back.... i guess i did. during the camp i cld see..i was so extra most of the time.. i was almost equals to invisible when i was there.
it hurts. i know shi wo zi zao de...bcoz i've been trying so hard to get new friends in the new sec sch environment that i've drifted away.and now, i've gotten tired of trying to get new friends, and need someone to talk to.... i find no one.
mayb i've made the wrong choice of getting into nan hua. mayb i was wrong all along to have put nan hua as the first choice when i cld've gone to better schools. i've found that yeah. im unhappy in this new environment. i've tried, but i cant feel the warmth i used to find in 6P.. owells.
depressed x( so what if i know there are pple around me. most of them i cant talk to. the rest half of them dun want to talk to me. the other half doesnt even realise i exist.